Sunshine and Rainbows...or as much positivity as I can muster....

NOTE: I have deleted the post previous to this one, because, frankly, it was just a wee bit too much. But don't worry--you ain't missing anything.

I was up till 4am last night, in a vicodin haze, writing the post previous to this one. I'm going to see if I can bring myself up a bit.

Well...I got paid today. That was good. Let's see...there was an Inservice at work today, but as it was not mandatory, I chose not to attend. (I know that decision may bite me in the ass, but I honestly don't care.) The weather's nice--so that's good too. It's cool, but sunny. As long as there's sun, I can deal with the temperature. Oh, and I see my shrink today, so lots of chance for positivity today. The bad news is that I can't get into SL today...but maybe that's actually good news. Whatever it is...that's actually the current extent of tangible "bad" in my life today.

I made it through last night's episode unscathed, except, maybe, for the fact that people's opinions about me may have been confirmed by reading that last post. But they feel how they feel. there's nothing I can do but be true to myself and write what's in my heart.

My personal Muse has been a great help to me lately. She's Muse and Ass-Kicker all in one. She is Yang to my Yin (or vice versa). When I'm sad, she is supportive. When she's in a bad place, I comfort her. We seem to not be down at the same time, which is interesting. Our personality styles are very different, too. I know there's a perfect place on the line between how I interact with people (bold, direct, hardass), and how she does (indirectly, sort of vague, and gentle). But when the two of us are together, brainstorming a project, it's magical. We think the same way, make the same points, and yet we challenge each other to come up with new ideas. It's very exciting.

So...since I still can't get into SL (yes, I've been trying every three minutes while writing this post), I may...dare I say it...see if I can refrain from logging in today? Probably not, but, I will consider it. Oh, and a quick side note to the fine folks at LL: YOUR BEST EFFORTS AREN'T GOOD ENOUGH. feh.

But to leave on a positive note, here's a link to a couple pictures of Lily playing mermaid. Enjoy!